Zzzzz.....

Well I start Walmart Tomorrow!!! Adjusting to nighttime isn't easy... I did anything I could to try and stay awake for 24 hours. By the time Mitch got home this morning, I was so out of it that I was acting buzzed. I actually would of taken the feeling of buzz from alcohol any day of the week over the buzz of sleepiness. At least with alcohol in your system, your body doesn't feel pain!!

But man, picking up my paycheck from Mama Fu's was a nightmare. Before I went to the restaurant, I called Alex (my supervisor) and let him know that Walmart is starting me a week ahead of schedule for overnight so I won't be able to work the rest of my remaining week. He told me that he needed me and that he had two other employees on vacation. I told him I would let him know when I picked up the check (Let him sweat a little hehe). 

Well, I arrived at Mama Fu's and seen Bill (the Manager), who just gave me my check. I didn't see Alex, so I was just said to myself, "Screw it!". I walked out and got in my car. I was about to back out, when this Taxi was right behind me. I sat and waited for a little bit, but it was enough time for Alex to come and chase me out in the parking lot. 

I told him what I thought (Trying to keep this under R rated as much as possible here, but you get the idea ;) and left. My paycheck was more than what I thought it was going to be so that was good news. Even better news is that I got my tax return today!! Awesome!! At first when I checked my account, my knee jerk reaction was, "Someone stole my Identity!", but than I thought, "If so, PLEASE KEEP DOING IT!!!" This was excellent news!!!

Welcome to Walmart

Ya I actually did the greeter part of the job today. And cashier, and stocking, and customer service....The list continues but I liked the variety. Not to mention the fact that I became friends with Freddie (Who just happens to be CEO of Walmart!!!) I couldn't believe how much a Manager can make working in a Walmart store!! (Sorry, but against company policy to list salary) He believes I can do it, after seeing how much I've worked over this past week. If I keep it up, within a year you might be looking at a new manager! Pray for me out there!!

Therianthropy Academy

"Therianthropy..." When I first said that word it had no meaning to me. But as I learned it's true meaning, I realized how this one little word has summed up most of my life over the years. In simple terms, it means the transformation, or metamorphism of human into animal. 

Please don't think it means the scary lycans (aka werewolves) that you've seen in Hollywood horror films. It essential means (to me anyway) that everyone who is Therianthrope is part human soul and part animal soul. We usually let out our animal soul in times of strong emotions. Anger, lust, jealousy, excitement. Some see it as "acting like a child", while those who are spiritualy inclind see it as your other half awakening. Believers will spend years developing a ying and yang to these halfs. For more information about this, please see http://sites.google.com/site/razgrizrta/lessons1/srtp1 

Please be advised this is only what I have found out about this topic. There is so much more involved that it would take more than this post to scratch the tip of the iceberg. 

The Dog ate my mouse...or was that homework??

I can't believe how much I've learned in just a few classes of bigginer Photoshop Class! Adobe Photoshop CS4 Classroom in a Book is amazing. Most Photoshop books teach you two ways of doing something that sometimes your not sure if that's the best method to use or not for your image. This book teaches you 10 different ways to get the same effect and why certain tools work better than others for certain projects. 

I thought I knew quite a bit of Photoshop (Hey someone has to toot my horn! Who better than yours truly??). I honestly thought that, "Maybe in Chapter 10 I'll learn something new." But no! I learned in the first few pages about various selection tools. I also learned a very useful skill in transforming a Pomeranian into a Wolf (Or is it the other way around?)

Either way, I'm loving this class! I'm making friends and learning new things. Two of some of the things essential in life (Hey I know there are others, but too many to list, in future posts no doubt!)

Sweet and Inspirational

Ever since Mitch took on this new overnight shift at his job, I've been becoming more and more independent. I've been realizing that I've been thinking about him less and focusing more on what I want. At first I thought, "Damn, am I a bitch or what?". But then I realized that being independent and doing things that make you happy isn't selfish or bitchy. I'm becoming a better person. A stronger person (Not there yet but on the road with a few more exits to go). 

Last night at around 6am, Mitch woke me up, hugging me gently and kissing me. He whispered to me that he loved me and that he was sorry for waking me up. He just wanted to talk to me. Not about anything in particular, like the bills, our jobs, or anything like that. Just wanting to talk with me because he felt lonely and wanted to be with me. I'll admit, my strong feelings of loneliness have pretty much drifted away for the most part, but after hearing those strong, emotional words last night, I couldn't help but feel awful and happy at the same time. I felt happy because even though he was sad, I realized just how much he not only wanted me, but needed and loved me. Awful, because I felt that somehow it was my fault for him feeling this way (Hey, mind you it was 6am and my brain isn't all there).

I know that it wasn't my fault for Mitch feeling this way, but if anyone person is to blame, it would have to be both of us. When he sleeps, I'm awake, and when I sleep, he's awake. We're lucky if we get 20 minutes in a work day to talk to each other. 

I love him so much. I don't ever want him to feel lonely, but you know what? I actually think him taking the overnight shift has helped to improve our relationship.We're now closer than ever before and I wouldn't change that for anything.

Everyone was Irish

Yes, I know it's not St. Patty's Day today, but because of our work schedules, my friends and I decided it was best to share our pot of gold (a.k.a. beer and corn beef and cabbage) today. We listened to traditional Irish music, along with Flogging Molly (LOVE^^), and played the Gloom card game, which is equivalent to Uno and Magic.

I hate the fact that I couldn't spend more time with Mitch today and the fact that I'll be traveling all over south Florida tomorrow. Not any site seeing tours, but business. The good news is is that my travels shall end by around 8pm, so I'll have time to work on some sites I'm creating, and spend some time to myself (hopefully some of it with Mitch). 

True Allies and a Sweet Tooth

I can't believe how my fellow employees are taking it!! They're actually asking me if I'll be alright working those late hours and telling me to come back and visit. They're truly amazing and I love them all!

I found this sugar cookie recipe that made the cookies two-toned with vanilla and chocolate (Yummy in my tummy :). When I get a chance I'm definitely making them and see how they turn out. Hey, I still want to try and open a bakery someday and hopefully succeed at it. I know Mitch would probably think, "This is just another fly by idea of mine". My fly by ideas only happen because I realize that if I follow through on certain ideas and passions of mine, money will fall short, so I can't really afford to pursue them. (Following dreams is not always as sweet as my cookies sadly).

Never give up! Never surrender!!